Day 10 – Something that upsets you

There are obvious things that makes me upset. I think of big things like war, injustice, abuse of power and violence in all forms, especially the vulnerable such as children and animals. But if I concentrate on the personal level, there's something I really hate like the plague. What I think of is envy.

Envy is mentioned as one of the seven deadly sins. It's really not so surprising that many of mankind horrible actions often are rooted in envy of all kinds. You probably agree with me on that. But - when it comes to the personal level, I think probably all of us have ever suffered from envy or jealousy. I have sometimes suffered from streaks of it and it gives and does not create any positive feelings or bring any happiness in life. On the contrary, the more you caves down in this you more unhappier you become.

"There is a special place in hell for women who do not help each other."

 - The winged words are Madeleine Albrights America's first female foreign minister. One can only hope she is right. One can also hope for the opposite. A special place in heaven for women who help each other would be, the more pleasant.

I myself have been involved in female co-workers or friends felt threatened by me. Why me, I do not really understand. Most of them who really knows me, knows that I'd rather be in the background and hates to be seen and heard too much. I am quite shy of me, especially when it comes to unfamiliar social situations or new people.

On one occasion I was hired with another girl to the same job that was initially only ment for one person. The boss said with a little teasing tone that we could compete with each other. I took it all with calm. If it wasen´t for the other girl who took it all very or too much seriously. She drove the whole range of dirty tricks and as soon as I had success with things you more green with envy, she was. It ended sadly when I gave up because I could not handle her. Now I was very young at the time and if it have been today I would probably have stayed and given her a real fight.When it comes to love relationships, there is no relationship more destroying than jealousy. Being jealous of your boyfriends female friends is a classic trap. And - yes, I have been in the degrading situation myself. But I have because of my experience, decided to stop thinking so negatively about myself and others. For what I send out will return to me. I send out love and positive thoughts about myself and I'll reap the rewards of that too.

Day 06 – Your best friend

Soulmate is probably a better word for best friend. Or why not in Swedish, twin soul. Someone who understands what you say before you even said so. Someone who comforts you when you need it. Someone who says you will do just as you are. Someone to laugh with when life feels like hell.

I have been wondering for a couple of days on my best friend. It has really evolved over who is my best friend. Had you asked me when I was nine years old with braces, I had told Linda E because she was so kind and sweet. Would you have asked me when I was nineteen, I'd say, Karen. This crazy Icelandic girl who was my complete opposite, loud, impulsive and redhead. If you asked me like that eight years ago, I probably answered my husband as I was then married, and this summer I had no doubt mention my dog ​​Charlie as my best friend. In other words, it has varied over the years.

Today I have learned one thing and that is to be glued to those who may concern, proving, lift me up. I collect people who do not disappear even when the wind is blowing. They are the ones who remains that means everything. When I was a bit lost in life for a few years ago, a male friend stodd by my side, that means a lot to me. Although we are very different so there he remained with me and listened to me many tear-drenched nights through. I am so grateful for him and he keeps me hard in.

There are also a handful of friends around me that I hold dear. The wonderful thing about them is enough that you can always call and talk to or meet at any time. and then no debt-laden issues - Well, that was indeed long time since we heard from you .. etc.

Since next year will mean a lot of changes in my life when I start a new job and hopefully in the course in Stockholm next fall so I'm looking forward to seeing more exciting new people and forge new ties as well as revisit some old contacts there up.